Progress

Its a late night but I felt it was time to write.  A lot has happened since I wrote last.  Im exhausted.  Drained, Ive studied myself out!  But I've made progress.  One thing this lady told me today at the YMCA which made me feel so good!  She told me that each time she sees me I look a little different, always beautiful, but this time she hardly recognized me.  I told her i hoped that this was a good thing! ( We should always find time to admonish one another, i personally believe it is because of the lack of love and attention that people long for that they feel they must force it by constantly making people look at them!  watch them!  when in reality, if they got the actually loving attention that they deserve......they wouldnt NEED to do all that because they ARE fullfilled BUT THIS IS JUST my opinion)))) Progress in ones life is so crucial to the big picture, its those small changes that accumulate over an extended period of time that change our course of walk.  I've been making steady changes lately.  Primarily, where I use my God given time.  Its so important to note where we spend our time, and evaluate if that time utilized watching that show, or whatever it may be, is adding value to your life or not.  Next, significat improvements occur when you realize your goals, and each day even if its just ONE step, your walking in that direction.  Sometimes for me its so often easy to get overwhelmed with the big picture, that I constantly am looking ahead in the future but forgetting to live in the absolute moment that it is.  I decided while making breakfast this morning to turn something inspirational on as, I was really needing a refreshning to my spirit kinda feeling.

 I got out Earl Nightingale whom talks about the strangest secret of success.  He's determines that a man is what he thinks.  If you often tell yourself you'll never be this or that, surely, you wont.  We must THINK. Think on what we desire, our goals, and make them attainable by thinking on them day in and out.  He sets this thirty day challenge and limits us to making just ONE goal for that thirty days, whatever it may be.  It could be to get in more shape, get closer to God, make more money, wtv it may be.   GREAT WISE MAN.  eventually over the twelve separate months you've developed some different habits!  I had been wasting a lot of energy over the things that I had no control over, and not spending enough time on what my challenges were for the day.  Once I met these challenges, then the future would come!  Its always good to work towards goals but its easy to get overwhelmed when we have so many of them, we don't know where to get started.  SOMEWHERE is better than NOWHERE. don't paralyze yourself.  God knows I've done it, and looked back and wondered where that year had been.


This is Earl Nightengale:Great suggestive reading: ACRES OF DIAMONDS

I've been getting in awesome shape lately, Ive been strength conditioning alot, jumproping, eating healthier(not COMPLETELY HEALTHY cuz i love food too much to drop it all) however, I feel no guilt because I look forward to the challenge to work it off.  I feel soooo much zeal when Im constantly trying something new, it feels soooo goood to open up my creative side.  My idea flow is like a river when im working out, singing in the shower and dancing around the house.  I feel one thing that had been the hardest in the past for me was REcognizing the things that were not fruitful in my life and cutting them off.  Id make time for them while letting the other things I desired to more love to do with my precious time go.  Not anymore, Ive taken life by the horns and it feels amazing. Ive really subjected myself to analyze my thinking habits because it is there that Satan is either given or not given reigns.  You can allow negative thoughts to ponder through but only with your permission!  this could b something as simple as, yea that business idea wont ever work, or ill never have an ass like that!  hahaha .....LIES!  i think its in the recogniztion of the negativity that we can finally have the power because at least we SEE it rather than live in it...MAke any sense!

Lets see, I cant wait to get this show on the road.  Ive determined that the kids and I are going to Canada(cuz ive been saying ima do it for long time now) as well as explore the rest of this state before we peace out.

Im buying this new professional camera to start some photography and take pics of where i grew up, where i had my first kiss, etc im so excited because primarily most these memories reside in our memory but I want something visual to represent this piece of history for the kids and I.  Then we gonna hit up the white mountains in NH which we've already been but didnt explore nearly as much as I so desired.

 NExt theres nothing in VT i wanna see so we gonna go to Boston and explore a couple games, planetarium, zoo, etc, they have a TON of entreprenuer seminars etc there that are simply inspiring i would lovvvee to get my hands on.

Next we are mapping out NY because I want to see niagra falls(my grandfather went a few years before he died and my aunt got a chance to see it) i wanna take some great photos under the falls.  I am also lookin forward to viewin NYC even if just for the day to get the massive feel for it, all the lights and hectic lifestyle these people live!

 Also want to see where the Twin towers went down and the progress work there.  NExt we ware hitting up Tennessee at this underground lake that Ive read about, its called the LOST SEA.......

 visitng VA for my grad school graduation, and of course SC to stop off to visit some old friends, and finnaly at our destination.  Im praying this summer will be filled with some amazing opportunities as we travel, we meet great people along the way, and develop some lasting friendships!  Well, the last thing I'd like to leave any reader with is an excerpt from one my leadership books by John Maxwell.  Its a simple verse outa The Bible "Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training"(1 Corinthians 9:25).  ......always...alwayss.....keep improving.  even when your 90 yeears old, theres always going to be someone out there that will be placed your wait that teaches you something you've never heard of , thought of, or dreamed of in your entire life.  Maybe you'll be that one person that has the opportunity to tell the rest of the world and change others...................................... love and peace   D

Woooahhhh Nelly

Yea, So I didn't know what to call this one.  Its an old saying that the horse is going too fast and its time to slow down.  Kinda feels bout like me right now.  Today was an anxious kind of day, making travel plans, calling apartment complexes, talking to the school, building my resume, cooking, cleaning, and not working out like I should be doing to relieve some of this stress.  Theres some things that I must understand more completely.  When something is making you feel overwhelmed, stress, and anxiety, you must go to the root of the source. My stems from some fear but thats not it for me, somehow through everything ive found a way to filter that in a positive way, it took me a long way to get here on that and still i have my days.  But for right now, Its an i simply cannot fail and i simply cannot stand without God right next to me. period. i cant fail.  there are times when i feel i need to quiet myself and withdraw.  Its not because im ignoring everyone around me, but its that i must mark my steps, and know fully that there is this mighty God behind me.  Ive done it so many times on my own, trying to take matters into my own hands, and everything just ends up discombobulated.  Yes. that word if it is even one just came out a grad students mouth.  I just have tooooo much riding on all the decisions i make, like three precious little lives that God entrusted to me to care for, nurture, and grow.  Some days it gets overwhleming and as I write tears flood my eyes.  Yes the struggle with single mother hood.  no this isnt one those pity parties, theres millions of woman out there toughening up their skin and pushing through just like me, im no different than any of em.  These are just true genuine words from my heart right now because i just went through an experience I probably will always remember.

Im at this crossroads.  Ive gotten everything turned into Full Sail Univeristy except one thing, this resume.  I started and stopped, started and stopped, started and sighed and shut the computer.  This one time in my life i nearly humbled myself like i never have before and fell  on my knees in prayer, with just this struggle.  i cant do this without Him.  flashes of my last 6 years went through my mind while.l...
 and i realized that I lived in a lot of shamefullness.  I hung my head from a lot of mistakes I had made, I secluded myself alot from many good strong healthy relationships that could have built, friendships, strong bonds because i was just too afraid to let anyone in.  my innest soul right now needs to feel like i belong.  everywhere i turned, id get through and get by but it was almost like i was living from outside my own body watching myself.  But i dug down to the deepest part of who i was and pushed through and got these degrees despite divorce, court situations, crazy military stuff, and hurt.  no this isnt about me.  Its NOT about being prideful and how much i want you to think of me cuz i could care less.

 I realized that life is not about me.  it doesnt matter what i do, how much i promote myself make rank, anything, i could have all those things and still feel completely empty.  its about loving others.  quietly loving.  even when you know no ones lookin' thats the best time.  the Bible talks bout the heathens whom pray out in the open and moanings/groanings to ensure others are watching.  we need to continuely humble ourselves everyday.  we all were blessed with talents, skills, and abilities that are special for each us.  i think we all get wrapped up so much in trying to be what everyone else is, that we forget or neglect the true person inside we are.  Most time, ive seen it with woman whom divorce, they are all seeking who they really are, trying new things, art, design, dancing, instrumental lessons, etc.  thats cuz we never got to discover who we were prior to being married and once your free of that, we try to fill this void in us.  we cant be satisfied with just being.  we have to be busy all the time, have to be going here/being the next one to have done the most crazy thing,etc.  we need to still ourselves and grow from the inside out.  let the waves be the waves, there comes a day when the stillness breaks in the water and He makes all things new, in their time.  TIME.  thats the key.  we have to allow ourselves that time.  feel the pain, or any other emotion thats attached and let it be.  theres nothing wrong with discovering ourselves.  absolutely not.  we all deserve the best travels, the best of everything, but let us not forget where we came from and who we are.  theres someone out there that needs you.  needs to hear of your experiences and feelings/emotions so that they can get through their heavy times in life.  if we just ignore everything, put our wall up, on to the next one attitude all the time, what was the journey for??????

Okay, none of this was intended to come out this way.  I really just meant to get the feelings I have out.  So let me continue.  After my prayers and surrender I was reminded gently of this time God spoke to me.  He tends to speak to me when either im going into the REM part of sleep or just coming out of  it, its weird.  Its probably much different from anyone else, but its like this as matter of fact thing that I can't shake.  One day last week I couldnt stop thinking of this verse that stated "I have plans for you to prosper" and how He desires to give us exceedingly abundantly more than we ever ask.  I didnt know the exact verse but it just kept going through my head, and I was just kept saying ya, i know yep, thats what you say in the Bible, but never thought deeper in how to apply this message.  and as I was coming out of that REM sleep, God showed me what He had in store for me.  I was going to be a CEO one day and I was going to sing.  period.            i kept thinking, for ME God?  me? you'd do that for me?  I really have what it takes to make that happen?

  So here it is.  Change of plans.  Im going for my Phd.  Im going to believe in myself and im going to rise and stand with God cuz we r gonna move mountains together.  Im going to go into these third world countries and help supply the poor with food, water, etc. yes there is tons of foundations doing that.  but STrategy.  We've got it.  Ill let him take care of the rest. for now.  ive worked so so hard. i need rest. ive got a receeding hairline and needless to say, I dont feel like I've taken as good care of my body as I should be. I need to nurse myself back to health, quiet myself, and let Him do the talking.  Til next time.

Love, peace, joy and all the happiness i could surely give through this mesg.
  They say knowlege is power, but it isnt unless its applied.

Dawn Marie

The kids and I have started this incredible journey and we are so excited to embark on it!  I have created this site for my friends, family, co workers, and others that I meet along the way that will become part of our lives to stay in touch, learn from each other, grow, inspire, and most of all put a smile on your face.

For one, we are about to move to Florida.  No, I wont miss chipping the ice off my vehicle.  I just got accepted at a school there called Full Sail University. It is the ultimate school for the newest movie, gaming and music industry.  This will be my second masters degree, it should take a little less than a year as I already have a masters degree and some credits transferred in.  It's a huge step to make for a single mother of three, many of my coworkers call me crazy, and  I just smile.  I love to think on the future and what it may hold but yet, let us remind ourselves to live each moment that we are in to the fullest.  I have a ton of people to see before I leave so my schedule has been tight, and a lot of groundwork to cover.  I hope that as our journey goes, you will get many laughs.

Next, we are looking to go to Spain, God willing.  I rest my case in that this is a once in a lifetime opportunity, tickets are over 1,200 a piece, but for the whole summer to travel much of Europe, it would be a great experience.  I'm praying the kids are old enough to remember everything and this might mean more to them if they were a little older, however, all scientists and statistics state that the earlier you can influence your children, the better.  I hope to expose them to multiple languages (of course that will be a challenge seeing that we don't speak them all) and meet some wonderful people.  If your heart is taking you to a place that is unfamiliar, feel the fear but don't let it run your life.  Do it afraid!  Can't say I am not, but God has Hand on our family and since we place that trust into His hands, we will be just fine.

Anyway, this is just a start.  There are so many more things that I hope to expose you too, most importantly my hope is not to change the way you view things, but to learn from you, take everything we learn from experience and apply it now!  Lets get started!!!